Pho-ntastic

“People who love to eat are always the best people.”

– Julia Child

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Vegetarian pho and sweet potato truffle fries, Pho 69, San Jose

(Bad picture because we were eating with a couple I just met and I didn’t want to be ‘that girl who photographs her food’, who I actually am and should be proud of.)

Cheater.

I know I missed a day in between but let’s move on and act like it never happened, okay? Okay. So for today’s post I’m going to cheat a bit and quote my favorite writer Edith Wharton :

“In spite of  illness, in spite even of the archenemy sorrow, one can remain alive long past the usual date of disintegration if one is unafraid of change, insatiable in intellectual curiosity, interested in big things, and happy in small ways.”

– Edith Wharton

That one sentence just sums up our life and everything we hope to do.

The smallest things make me happy these days. The sun came out today and I was happy. It’s been so long since I felt the sun on my face or even broke in to a sweat, for that matter. I guess that’s what living in Chennai makes you miss. So once the sun was out I decided to go for a pseudo run. So I ran. On the wrong side of the road, I think. And almost bumped in to one uncle who laughed it off. Crossed the road and had one Aunty say “Yes! You made it”. It felt good to have some one cheer me on like that. I’m thinking of hiring a cheerleader to cheer me on when I feel down. Oooh maybe I should just hire an entire squad! I should put that in my list.

So on my run today I crossed a gallery where an artist painted on the walls along the streets. I saw this little gem and my heart skipped a beat. It felt like someone had taken that thread of thought that’s been running through my mind lately and decided to plaster it on the walls. I could feel a little smile creeping up and the sun just shined brighter today.

 

 

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“I don’t know what’s worse: to not know what you are and be happy, or to become what you’ve always wanted to be, and feel alone.”

– Flowers For Algernon, Daniel Keyes

“Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.”

– Oscar Wilde

Isn’t this what everyone fears? To think like another person, breathe in their ideas and eventually lose sight of who you really are. I’ve been there. Waking up in the morning not feeling the least bit like yourself. Lying to yourself repeatedly. Unable to distinguish between your thoughts and convincing yourself every day that you were meant to be here, in the present. Absorbing yourself in to someone else is probably the worst thing you can do to kill your soul. Recovering from that is hell. Even when you do come out of the cage you keep doubting, is this what you want or is this what they want you to want. It is hard to break away. But you should try. You should always try.

 

“Someday, somewhere – anywhere, unfailingly, you’ll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life.”

– Pablo Neruda

“Peter Walsh got up and crossed to the window and stood with his back to her, flicking a bandanna handkerchief from side to side. Masterly and dry and desolate he looked, his thin shoulder-blades lifting his coat slightly; blowing his nose violently. Take me with you, Clarissa thought impulsively, as if he were starting directly upon some great voyage; and the,\ next moment, it was as if the five acts of a play that had been very exciting and moving were now over and she had  lived a lifetime in them and had run away, had lived with Peter, and it was now over.”

– Mrs. Dalloway, Virginia Woolf

“And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had the familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.”
– F.Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
“Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem almost to be born that way. They bruise easier, tier faster, cry quicker, remember longer and, as I say, get sadder younger than anyone else in the world. I know, for I’m one of them.”

– Ray Bradbury